I Would Title This, But I Am Too Indecisive

The good thing about over half of our class being gone for Close Up is that we do absolutely nothing in every one of our classes. For instance, I am currently in Chemistry, but since there's only seven of us here, we got laptops and are currently doing nothing productive. I mean, we are supposed to be watching a video. Honestly, I am sort of half watching it. It's about this guy who kept radioactive stuff in his kitchen in Tupperware containers. I am seriously worried for this guy. I mean, come on, he goes to Kmart and buys several smoke alarms and lithium batteries in order to build a neutron gun. We should all be afraid. He was a boy scout. Maybe that should teach you something; don't let your son be a boy scout. I just learned that Michigan isn't that radioactive. Too bad. I totally wanted to go there to meet all of my radioactive needs.

I went to the clinic today. They tested me for strep throat. The test came back negative. So, I guess that's good. I am currently taking a prescription for my sore throat. Hopefully I feel better within a couple of days. Hopefully I feel better before next week.

I realized again today how bad I am at making decisions. I am the worst at being indecisive. I can't make even the easiest of decisions. How can I even get better at making decisions? I actually have a fear of going to a restaurant and not knowing what to order. I have a fear of it. Who does that? Who has a fear of that? Something must be seriously wrong with me. I also have a fear of going places by myself. I must think others have that problem, but a fear of not knowing what food to order? I must be out of my mind. Anyway, if I were asked to pick strawberries or blueberries, I would like to think that I wouldn't need more than two seconds to think about it. But, honestly, I would probably not know what to do. My chemistry teacher is enjoying this movie way too much. Whoever gets this laptop next will be sick, because I am pretty sure I am coughing. Anyway, I can't say that I would better if someone just made all of my decisions. Sometimes I ask my mother something, like "Which one is better?" and she gets mad. She thinks I don't listen to her answer. However, her answer just makes me realize what I wanted all along.

I wonder if I was ever hypnotized, would my subconscious know my right hand from my left hand?

Winter (Again) and Sickness

Have I ever told you how much I completely hate snow? In North Dakota, you can go from driving around in your car which your air conditioner on, window rolled down and then window tightly sealed shut and heater on... all in one day. It's really annoying to see snow outside after you have had beautiful spring days. There isn't anything I can do about it. I just have to wait for the snow to melt... again. It doesn't help any that the person who bladed our street this morning had no idea how to blade it right. I live on a street where there are houses along one side of the road and no houses at all on the other side of the road. So why wouldn't you blade the road so the snow is pushed to the side of the street where there are no houses? I may not always be the smartest person on some topics, but if I were to blade a street, I would at least know better than to push snow into people's driveways. Come on now, people.

To make matters worse, I am sick. I have a stupid sore throat. And while I probably shouldn't be in school today, I still am. I am infecting others and now everyone around me will probably get sick. I don't even feel the slightest bit healthy. Quite honestly, I feel like a giant pile of snot. I know, horrible discription. Actually, great discription, but horrible image that is being put into your head. The throat is swollen and it isn't easy to breathe. Yeah, it's a lot of fun. I don't even have much of a voice. My mother told me to stop talking because my voice is so annoying. I am trying to just whisper, but it isn't easy when your English teacher askes you a question and you can do nothing but open your mouth and when nothing comes out say, "I can't talk."

At least the sun is shining. See, there can even be a silver lining when they were snow clouds.

Still Winter

Yep, apparently we aren't going to have spring yet. This is my window. Sad day indeed.

Sunset

"From sunrise to sunset help me not forget all that you've done for me
From sunset to sunrise help me keep my eyes upon your glory
From sunrise to sunset help me not forget all that you've done for me
From sunset to sunrise help me keep my eyes upon your glory"
-Paul Wright, From Sunrise to Sunset

photo by yours truly

To Quit or Not to Quit

Thursday Thirteen #1

Thirteen of my Favorite "A" Words

1. Antediluvian (meaning: of or belonging to the period before the Flood; also meaning very old, old-fashioned, or out of date; antiquated; primitive)
2. Apathetic (meaning: having or showing little or no emotion; also meaning not interested or concerned; indifferent or unresponsive)
3. Aboutface (meaning: a complete, sudden change in position, direction, principle, attitude, etc.)
4. Acerbate (meaning: to make sour or bitter or to exasperate)
5. Auld Lang Syne (meaning: old times, esp. times fondly remembered)
6. Awakening (meaning: a revival of interest or attention)
7. Awkward (meaning: lacking grace or ease in movement)
8. Aye (meaning: yes)
   
9. Altercation (meaning: a heated or angry dispute; noisy argument or controversy)
10. Allude (meaning: to refer casually or indirectly; make an allusion)
11. Akimbo (meaning: with hand on hip and elbow bent outward)
12. Acerbity (meaning: sourness, with roughness or astringency of taste)
13. Absolute Truth ("Jesus answered, 'I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" (John 14:6))

Why Thirteen on a Thursday?

Watercooler Wednesday [4/2/08]

The thing I love about blogs is that they spur you on to thoughts and ideas you wouldn't have normally had. I have never taken part in this before, but Watercooler Wednesday sounds like a great idea. Graffiti: Art or Vandalism? I believe that graffiti is an expression of an artist. Artists aren't just in museums and they don't always use easels. Artists use what they can (they work with what they got) and put their point of view out in the world through a way others don't always understand or think of. I probably don't agree with Banksy's point of view or see things the way he sees them, but I can not say that he isn't talented. Other graffiti artists are out there painting on walls and painting on trains, trying to express themselves. Most don't do it for recognition, even the ones who sign their name. I understand how people are annoyed by graffiti and how they don't think it's in appropriate places. I live in a small town and we don't really have much (if any) actual graffiti. Like a boy scratching my name and his name underneath the twisting slide at the park doesn't count. (I didn't even like him. He even spelled my name last wrong. I mean, come on now.) I think that everytime I do see graffiti anywhere that it is really cool. It's pretty awesome how some people choose to express themselves. Once I saw Romans 6:23 spray painted on the side of a train. Props to them. Props to them, indeed. Also, if John Mayer thinks graffiti is music video worthy, it's alright with me. (And no, I am not a big John Mayer fan. Or a fan of him either.)

April 1st and Then Some

" When I’m left alone
Down at the heart of it
My doubt was never a sign of strength
I wish I’d known that You were never far
I guess I would’ve known if I would’ve been awake"
-Wavorly, Sleeper

Sometimes I wonder if people ever mean what they say. I am sure some people must, but it really seems that most people say something and do the opposite. Before I can say it annoys me, I must make sure that I am staying true to my word. Because there is nothing more annoying that someone saying something is annoying, but they are doing what supposedly annoys them the whole time.

Prom was Saturday and it was actually a lot of fun. I was tired, but being with friends and what not always makes things fun. Plus, it helps that my date was not pressuring, with meant that I could have more fun. Even though they never played the "Cha Cha Slide," which is like amazing. Post prom was even a lot more fun this year than it was last year. I am glad it over (and that I have caught up on sleep for the most part), but it was a fun time. I posted pictures yesterday, so feel free to tell me how pretty I looked as many times as you want.

In English yesterday, we had to write a journal entry about our writing style. I am not really sure how to describe my writing style. I don't really feel like I am that great of a writer (and yet I plan on minoring in Mass Communications). I suppose I could post something that I have written in the past. I wrote that my writing style is probably very flippant, since my past English teachers have told me that I am flippant. I don't tend to be very serious (which seems to get on people's nerves, especially when they are mad at me), so I do not really think I probably write very seriously. However, I probably do write with the word "probably" more times than most.

Tonight we are having an Africa [Missions trip] meeting where we are going to be discussing important topics and other seriousness. Then I have quizzing practice, which probably means that I should be studying. Of course, I should be getting ready and not posting this blog, too and you see how far that gets me.

And another thing, your shoes are untied.

Oh, you're right. April Fool's!

And for that very reason, ladies and gents, I will be wearing shoes with no shoelaces today. I am imagining the lame-o comeback, "Your face is untied," will be used more than it should be today. I wonder if "you dropped your pocket" can be an April Fool's joke. And for those of you with a real sense of humor, today is also the best day for an Atheist's Holiday, since it is indeed April Fool's Day. In elementary, there used to be a kid that would tell April Fool's jokes every day of the year; it was really annoying. So if you want to tell me an April Fool's joke, you better do it today because if you do tomorrow, I will punch you in the face.

Ha, ha. I wouldn't do that. April Fool's.