Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I Think (well, Know) God Knows

I am stressed. I am stressed because I am going to Africa. I am stressed because I am going to Africa and I am not done packing (but everything should fit, weight might be the problem, though) and no one really seems to know what we are doing. I am told this is good. That this is better even. That since we don't know what we are doing exactly, we not only have to be prepared for more, we also have to rely completely on God.

I am afraid. I am afraid because I am going to Africa. I am afraid because I am going to Africa and I am not going to be with my mother. (Doesn't that sound like I am five-year-old?) I have never really traveled. (Flying to Canada pre-9/11 doesn't really count, because it is nothing like flying to South Africa today.) I am afraid because I am sure something will go wrong. Something will go wrong and I will want to cry. I will want to cry and people will think I am crazy. Or that I am a baby.

I am a lot of other verbs. However, I am trying to tell myself again and again that God has a plan. God knows. God will take care. God will be enough for every need that I have or will have. God is enough to cover my stress and my fears and my other verbs.

" Mission trips in particular have a way of pushing people to their limits. When you arrive jet-lagged and dazed at your destination to find that your shower spews dirty cold water for only an hour a day, your host doesn’t actually have any cement for the house you planned to build and there is no bus to the village for another three days, you might feel just a little antsy, and you might just take this out on the first person to cross your path. Stop. Breathe. Remind yourself it’s not about earning a medal in the history of Good Church People; it’s about still loving God and your neighbor along the way of whatever comes." -Christine Jeske [source]

1 comment:

vagabondrunn said...

I will be lifting you up this week as you prepare physically, emotionally, and spiritually. You are blessed and will continue to be.

Let me leave you with something I received today from a friend:

The Power Of Peace

Todays Scripture:

“Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid” (John 14:27).

Today's Word from Joel and Victoria:

No matter what may be going on all around you today, you can still live in peace. The scripture encourages us to not let our hearts be troubled. In other words, don’t meditate on all the negative things in this world to the point that it steals your peace. If you have fear, worry or anxiety about anything, recognize that those feelings aren’t from God because He has promised to give you a spirit of power, love and a sound mind. There is tremendous power in peace. When you are at peace internally, you can think more clearly. You can hear the voice of God more easily. You’ll make better decisions. Even your physical body responds to peace. The enemy knows this, and his goal is to steal your peace. He tries to set you up to get upset. But when you choose to receive God’s peace, then no weapon formed against you shall prosper. You can live in peace, you can live in joy, and you can live the abundant life God has for you.

A Prayer for Today

Heavenly Father, thank You for Your gift of peace in my life. I choose to receive Your peace in my heart and hold it close to me always. I receive Your Word as truth and life to my soul. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

So Andra, take that with you and continue to be blessed.

-Kj