Wednesday, January 2, 2008

God is in Control

"'Cause lately it just seems to me
Like we’ve got the letters A.D.D.
Branded into our mentality
We simply can’t focus on anything"
Relient K, Maintain Consciousness

Three Silly Things Before I Get Serious:
1. You can not do air quotes while wearing mittens.
2. I am the best shirt picker outer.
3. I enjoy bursting out in Relient K songs that fit the moment, okay, I enjoy it even when it's totally out of nowhere. (If you would like to share in the joy that is Relient K, just ask and I will make you a CD of all my favorite Relient K songs. I promise. It would actually even be a gift for me to be able to listen to Relient K, so seriously. Just ask, you know you want to. Come on, share in the joy of Relient K.)

That being said, I want to say a couple different things. I can't guarantee that it wouldn't be completely random and out of the blue. Most people can't follow my thought process, so don't feel bad if you can't either. Because you probably can't. Don't waste any time trying, just read the words I say and hopefully it comes together in the end. If it doesn't, don't give up on my blog.

Things can change in a second. It's scary and crazy. It's pretty much life. But, at times you will think you've got things under control and you know what to expect, and then you get a text message and things change. I am not sure how they will change, but be sure of this, things will not be the same. You really can't avoid change, because it's usually change that is other people's change and since they are in your life, their change because change for you, too. Other times it will be change for your life. And you have to make it work. Well, you have to let God work. God is in control.

I am happy that I am single. I couldn't always that sentence honestly, but I have honestly come to the point where I am happy to be single. I thought that once I became content with being single, God would just be nice and put a guy in my life, because it seems guys just somehow unexpectedly came into my life before. Like, I never have been looking for a boyfriend ever. But, I was wrong. I was wrong in that I am happy to be single, and God didn't really put a guy in my life, but has changed my thinking process. I don't want a boyfriend. I am enjoying my singleness. I didn't think it would end up this way. That has good and bad to it. Bad being that, I don't know how I am going to get a prom date. (And prom is important to me, so I would very much like to go, and I would very much like to go with a guy friend. Just a friend. But a guy.) Anyway, I just want to get to know Jesus before I get to know any guy anymore than a friend. I don't know if I am making any sense at all. But, God is in control.

Change of attitude. Come to a place of total worship. Change of attitude. Change of attitude. Change of focus. Not just focus on getting work done and making progress, but making the focus be on Christ and praising Jesus with everything we have. I should be going to bed, but I have to get my thoughts out first. We have worship practice, but we all need a change. I need a change or attitude. I need a passion for worshiping my King, my Savior. I need to learn how to lay it all done at His feet and praise Him with my ability to at least attempt to play guitar. I want my worship to be worship. I want to learn how to focus and not just I have ADD focus, I want to turn my eyes upon Jesus and look full into His wonderful face. I don't know the first step in getting to that place. But, that's where I want to be. God is in control.

God is in control of my life. My future. God is in control of me.

"I throw up my hands
Oh, the impossibilities
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear"
-Relient K, For The Moments I Feel Faint

"I don’t wanna wait another day, right now
Lay it all down, lay it all down
Any other way, we’ll make a change, right now
Lay it all down, lay it all down"
-Sevenglory, Let It All Down

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